December 29, 2010

Future Self

December 21 – Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) (Author: Jenny Blake)

Baby or not, you need to exercise. It is the only thing that is going to keep you going. Two kids is going to be a lot to handle on your own. Just do a little bit at a time and I am sure that you will love it!

Self from 10 years ago,
I think you should know that the Navy is going to be one of the best things you ever do for yourself. Don't be scared, it's a piece of cake! When you are pregnant, please, do not eat for two. You don't need to. You will get depression after the baby is born. Please, find someone to talk to. That is all you need and you will make it through. I love you!

Beyond Avoidance

December 20 – Beyond Avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)

Exercise and eat strictly healthy. I have been making excuses for myself all year! Today is a rainy day and I should walk over to the gym with Aiden. Then I tell myself no because they probably won't like Aiden being in there with me.


December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)

The Power of a Praying Wife - Stormie Omartian
This book has done a lot in the little bit that I have read. I want to continue reading it and after I finish it I want to go through it again on the subjects that I feel still need God's hand. Praying for my husband has put a change in me and if I keep at it, hopefully it will be a permanent change.


December 18 – Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)

I would love to try surfing! I have wanted to do that forever and have always put it off. 

I wanted to start my photography business this year and did. Although, all of the sessions I did were free and when someone tried handing me money for it I would decline. It felt really good to photograph other people. I was really happy at those moments. Hopefully I will be more persistent this year in advertising whether it be on craigslist or somewhere else. I also need to be persistent in taking those classes I have wanted to take forever! 

Lesson Learned

December 17 – Lesson Learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)

Without persistence I will get nowhere in life.
I hope to remember this and push through my walls of believing I can't be better at photography, or no one wants me to take their pictures and I shouldn't waste my time.

I will never be the perfect mom or wife.
I will still never stop striving to do the best for my family though.


December 16 – Friendship. How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? (Author: Martha Mihalick)

Just that everyone needs someone to lean on. 

5 Minutes

December 15 – 5 Minutes. Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)

1. How big Aiden has gotten this year. His speech has gotten so much better. 

2. Aiden asking me how the baby was going to get out of my belly. "Does the doctor have to crack you open, like an egg?"

3. How much my husband really has changed for the better. Small steps or not, it is still change.

4. I finally found a friend who is willing to be there for me as much as I am there for them. I have appreciated her ear when I just need someone to listen. Then there is that ten days on bed rest where she spent so much time playing the same card games with me over and over. I really appreciate her patience.


December 14 – Appreciate. What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)

I have really come to appreciate my husbands patience with me. I have always had a little bit of a temper and pregnancy has magnified it. I feel like I am constantly yelling and I can't seem to stop myself. Lately, I have been making sure to tell my husband thank you for whatever it was he helped me out with that day. It makes me so happy when I don't even have to ask him to do something. For instance, take Aiden outside to play so I can rest for a couple of minutes. I am working on not yelling as much and hopefully I can eliminate it altogether very soon. Sometimes I just need to remind myself to walk away for a minute or don't start yelling, talk nicely. I hope to get my temper under control very soon.


December 13 – Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

My next step would be to start advertising my photography on craigslist again. I would also like to save up for real advertisement which anything is too expensive for me right now. Then I also have to keep taking classes to further my knowledge and skills. Like I said though, money...

Body Integration

December 12 – Body Integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)

I have to say I don't understand this at all. Guess I will have to pay more attention to myself this year?

December 28, 2010

11 Things

December 11 – 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn’t need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (Author: Sam Davidson)

1. Facebook games
2. Cell phones with internet
3. Credit Card Debt
4. Cable t.v.
5. Store bought treats
6. ... I will have to get back to this one, we've already eliminated just about everything we don't need. 


December 10 – Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

I think that would be getting rid of our internet capable phones. Although, it hasn't happened yet! My husband is pretty attached to his. I feel that if we were to get just basic cell phones we would definitely save money, but also be a little closer to each other. My husbands nose is always stuck in front of his cell...


December 9 – Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans. (Author: Shauna Reid)

Ha Ha! I don't think I have ever been to a party!

Beautifully Different

December 8 – Beautifully Different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful. (Author: Karen Walrond)

I think the fact that I aspire to be a housewife and stay at home mom makes me different than a lot of moms I know. I love knowing that I am here trying to make our house as comfortable as possible for my husband when he gets home. No, dinner is usually always forgotten about; but my husband usually never has to lift a finger when he gets home and can relax!
Being a stay at home mom is a wonderful job. I would rather try to spend every minute with my son than to send him to a daycare where every child is put in the same category learning style. I want to figure out what is best for him and how he will learn best. 
The thing that close friends like about me is the fact that I always try to be there for them no matter what. 


December 7 – Community. Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011? (Author: Cali Harris)

Community isn't something I thought of looking for this year. I would love to go to church more in 2011. Hopefully to one that is close. I really like The Rock Church but I feel its a little overwhelming. There are just too many people and it seems too hard for me to get involved. 

I am interested in taking a few photography classes in 2011 to build my confidence and knowledge.

Then there is also my son. I would like to get him into a homeschool meet-up group this coming year. He is so very curious and I just don't know what I should do to further his knowledge and curiosity. This group, I am sure, will also help me get a feel of what to do as far as homeschooling goes.


December 6 – Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)

The last thing that I made was snowflakes with my son. Just using paper and scissors. I would love to make a few baby clothes for the baby I am having in April. I just need to know the gender so I can begin! Hopefully I can find that out soon!

Let Go

December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)

I have let go of a few friends this year. I have realized that I just don't need their negativity in my life and it's best if I just let go.

December 27, 2010

Recap on Writing

So it's only been like half a day since I erased all of my games but this morning I accomplished something I have been forgetting to do every month. I dealt with my bills and moved them around so we don't feel so constricted!
I have this feeling that 2011 is going to be a much better year than the last.

December 26, 2010


Better late than never! This post comes from Reverb 10.

December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? (Author: Jeffrey Davis)

Playing with my three year old definitely brings back a sense of wonder. It's like becoming a child again. This year made me realize I wanted to start my own photography business. Although, it is starting out quite slow, it doesn't stop me from taking pictures as much as possible.


Better late than never! This post comes from Reverb 10.

December 3 – Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors). (Author: Ali Edwards)

 Any day that I concentrate on my son is a glorious day. I love giving him a task and watching him accomplish it. He turned 3 in October and I am so impressed with what he has accomplished already. I am working towards homeschooling him and am trying to find as much information on how to do that.


Better late than never! This post comes from Reverb 10.

What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?

Facebook games are a major part of my life that shouldn't be. Very addicting! I play at least five games a day. I will delete all of them and block the applications so no one can tempt me with an invite!

One Word

Better late than never! This post comes from Reverb 10.

2010 was - stressful
2011 will be - successful

December 22, 2010

Can't sleep!

I had a Butterfinger before bed and I think it might have been too much sugar for me. I have been thinking about homeschooling for over a year now and just don't know where to start.

Five in a Row sounds like a great idea to start with.
Charlotte Mason Series  is something to look into, although it will take a lot of reading.
Homeschool Highlights  has some interesting things for preschoolers.
More Charlotte Mason but this looks like there are many ideas.
Whimsy Way has her curriculum put out there to look at. It starts for kindergarten though.
Here are some preschool and kindergarten learning activities.
I need to read this!
And this...
I also cannot forget that I signed Aiden up for Nick Jr. Boost program which he loves. I think that I better let him do that tomorrow!

Happy Day

I finally did a few crafts with Aiden. I now realize how many more crafts we should be doing. He loves it! So this evening I went to the dollar store to get a few more crafting items. It was like trying to find a needle in a haystack but I got what I needed and can't wait to make a Christmas tree out of a pinecone and some reindeer out of paper bags.

Make My Day

These little salt and pepper shakers from ModCloth made me smile today. I hope to one day own them!
So I see that I am quite behind on writing down daily things. We moved into a three bedroom house on December 14th, so we have been busy unpacking and decorating for Christmas. In between decorating and unpacking, I have been having pain in my lower back on my right side. I have went into the hospital a couple of times and they say that I am ok? Well I went in Monday night and my doctor happened to be there and told me I am close to a kidney infection. So she switched my medicine for ten days. I can't take it longer than that because I am too close to 28 weeks and this medicine can cause the baby to get some disease after 28 weeks. So far this medicine is making me gassy! Not happy about that.

I am happy that it has finally stopped raining after about five days. Aiden and I went outside for a walk / bike ride around our park. It was quite refreshing and I would have liked to have walked longer but a three year old can only go in circles so many times! Hopefully when Matt gets home I will be able to go for a better walk.

I am trying to think of things to do with Aiden that will keep him busy and get him to stop asking to watch tv. So today we made snowflakes and a santa ornament. I will be looking for more ideas to keep him off the tv.

Mental Note to Myself

Christmas crafts for Aiden

Other crafts to do with Aiden

December 6, 2010

A list that goes on forever!

I just realized that there is a lot of things I need for the baby and don't have much of anything. I guess I better get to building my stash of baby items! I know that it might still be a little cold in April. Hopefully I can find most on Craigslist or at second hand stores.

  • 3 hooded towels
  • 5 washcloths
  • 10 onesies
  • 5 sleep sacks
  • 10 footed outfits
  • a pack of socks
  • 4 hats
  • 2 sweaters
  • 4 receiving blankets
  • 4 swaddle blankets
  • 4 crib sheets
Feeding & Changing
  • lots of burp cloths
  • breast feeding cover
  • 12 BumGenius Cloth Diapers 
  • Diaper sprayer
  • A&D ointment, Balmex, Desitin
Big Items
  • small Pack n' Play
  • Glider
  • Baby carrier
  • Breast pump
  • car seat
  • stroller
  • Swing
At least I have most of the big items!

December 1, 2010

Getting in Shape for Baby

No, I did not do yoga yesterday. I didn't sleep at all the night before so I was on the couch almost all day. I got a couple hours of sleep last night. I am so restless and anxious for this baby that it keeps me up. Plus, we are moving in two weeks so that has a lot to do with it also.

Jabs 3 sets 12 reps
Plie Squats 3 sets 10 reps
Squats 4 sets 10 seconds
Jacks with a Pod 4 sets 10 reps
Childs Pose 3 sets 20 seconds
Curb Ups 3 sets 20 reps

I am really loving Tight Bod With A Pod blog. I feel good once again! Hopefully I can see a difference once this baby is born.

November 29, 2010

Weeks 7 & 8!

The person I got this challenge from was the mom shots blog. She really only posted one a week and I don't think she got past week 6. Yes, she has a couple of kids and a new baby so I can't blame her. So I figured, the whole point of this challenge is to produce 52 pages of scrap booking, why not do them and post them when I have some free time?  So here is weeks 7 and 8.

No, I am not very good at journaling. Maybe that is something I will work on another scrap book year.

You can download these free scrap materials at Shabby Princess!

Getting in Shape for Baby

Today is the first day that I have done a work out in forever. Yes, I've been walking. I figured now is a better time than ever to get going on toning and stretching. Hopefully this will help me get back into shape quicker after the baby is born.

I found a blog called Tight Bod with a Pod that has before and after pregnancy workouts. I plan on following this throughout the rest of my pregnancy and after.

Bicep Press 3 sets 12 reps
Leg Scissors 3 sets 15 reps
Power Up 2 sets 20 reps
Wall Push Ups 3 sets 10 reps
Pigeon 2 sets 10 seconds
Jacks with a Pod 4 sets 8 reps

I feel quite refreshed after that and a bit tight in the worked out areas. That's what I get for not exercising in a long time. Hopefully I remember to do prenatal yoga tomorrow!

Have a great day!

November 27, 2010

Week 6

I did this page three times and just couldn't get it the way I wanted it to look until now. I am sure there is still something else that I could do better. 

You can find these scrap materials for free at Shabby Princess!

November 26, 2010

Scrapbook Challenge - Week Five

I love weekends, especially holiday weekends. I have a little time to myself to work on the computer. I am sure that this will be a lot more difficult once our baby is born.

I think that this one is my favorite so far!
All scrap materials can be found at Shabby Princess!

Week Four- Trains

I need to get ahead of myself on this project so I can continue this project for 2011 or start previous years. Anyways, here is one for February 2010.

These scrap products are free at Shabby Princess!

November 21, 2010

Weeks 2 and 3!

OK! So I might just post more than once a week! I have been having so much fun with learning how to digital scrapbook that I have finished January 2010! There weren't very many photos anyway.

These scrap materials are free at Shabby Princess!

November 19, 2010

Free Digital Scrapbook kits!

I found this great website with very cute FREE scrapbook kits. I plan on using one for next week!
Shabby Princess

November 18, 2010

52 Week Scrapbook Challenge- Week 1

I am trying a 52 week scrapbook challenge. I do a lot of photographing of Aiden and nothing is put into photo albums or scrapbooks. This seems a lot easier and I can learn a lot more in Photoshop.

These pictures were taken back in August. I am still learning how to work my camera and of course Photoshop.

Aiden says the funniest things Part 2

I was upstairs and Aiden was downstairs. It was deathly quiet down there. As I am coming down the stairs I see the carton for eggs laying on the couch and a lone egg beside it. All of the other eggs are missing and so is Aiden. As I quietly search for Aiden I notice his foot protruding from underneath the train table. I look underneath and it seems like he might be asleep. I whisper "Aiden, what are you doing?" His head pops up and he has a huge smile on his face. It is then that I notice he is laying on all of the eggs. He says "I'm hatching!"

Aiden says the funniest things

Lately, my son has said some pretty funny things. The first one that I remember was our conversation about the baby in my belly.

Mom, will the doctor crack you open to get the baby?

Crack me open?

Yeah, like an egg!

LOL! Oh no.

Well then how do you get the baby?

I sort of have to push it out, like when you poop.

... Well how you do that???

November 10, 2010

Four Good Things

1. My pain from this pregnancy seems to be slowly going away. Next week will be 5 months!

2. Since getting off bed rest, Aiden has been pretty mellow for me and not running around. Astro Boy & Thomas and Friends seems to be helping quite a bit.

3. I made bread today! We ran out of bread and I had a recipe from my grandma so I tried it out and it turned out delicious!

4. It's 5pm and my husband is finally home!

Hope you could find four good things about your day :)

August 8, 2010

This made me laugh

Today we went to Lake Murray. I was trying to take pictures of Aiden but he refused to look at me. Matt decided to help out by telling Aiden how to pose. Two memorable things happened, this pose was one of them. On our way back to the car, Aiden was on Matt's shoulders and Matt was having him repeat things. Matt said, "Aiden say suck it." Aiden cups his hands around his mouth and yells at the top of his lungs, "SUCK IT!!!"  The two memorable moments just seem to go together : )

August 6, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come
Insprired by Soulemama.

July 26, 2010

New Beginnings

I am finally doing what I have always wanted to do. Photography, taking beautiful photos of other families. I had my first photo session on Saturday and it was so much fun. I had to chase the toddler K to get a picture of him, he was such a cutie. I was so afraid I wouldn't get anything good from K because every time I got in front of him he would turn away. I did though, I shot very good photos of the whole family.

Today I am feeling defeated, blue. My husbands words are getting to me. Obviously negative and degrading. Nothing will ever come of this. What a waste of money. Your never gonna make it. They may not be exact words from his mouth but this is what I feel he says to me.

July 23, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come
Insprired by Soulemama.

July 11, 2010


I have started The Steve Ward Diet. Really it's just a graph of my weight everyday. The days I am above the line I just have to move more. The "diet" says on those days to eat just broccoli but I don't think I can do that. I will just eat healthier and walk longer on those days.

I am still getting over my two month long cold. This thing bites the big one. I am so tired of the sinus pressure every morning. My migraines seem to be getting worse too. Anyways, I will hopefully update my graph diet by next Sunday just to see if it has worked at all. Of course anything will work if I just stick to it!

June 27, 2010

Ten for 2010 Update!

Here are ten things I would like to do before the end of 2010. They seem easy enough and I will cross them off my list as I complete them.

1. Organize the Kitchen and Dining Room
2. Sew a dress for myself
3. Take a photography class
4. Pay off one credit card
5. Have a date night with Matt at least once a month
6. Refinish my patio table
7. Grow some vegetables  (I have 4 tomatoes growing!)
8. Put $1000.00 into savings
9. Redecorate the living room
10. Take Aiden to Sea World

June 18, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.

June 16, 2010

Day 8 Beliefs

I have never fully read the Bible. Just so you know I don't know everything I should, but here is a little bit from my writing challenge.

"I just don't see God turning His back on anyone. Gay or Straight. I believe is it us who lose sight of God or turn our backs on Him. I believe that God is by our side through all our decisions, good or bad. He is there waiting for us to turn to Him and ask Him for guidance..." 

June 10, 2010

A Step Closer to Finding Myself

Today felt great. I didn't end up doing yoga because of a busy day but I made sure to do my writing. I am glad I did that.

"Amber, I just wanted to tell you how much I love and adore you. I only wish that I could come out and show you. I hope that you find yourself soon. Love, me"

Yes, I wrote that to myself. Yes, it may seem cheesy but it certainly made my day worth while.

June 9, 2010

Am I up to the Challenge?

So I happen to stumble upon this website and she is hosting a writer's challenge. This challenge is for 21 days, 5 days a week I will be doing yoga and every day I have to write 800 words. It sounds to me like I could get something out of this.

I feel like between marriage and a child I have lost myself. I closed myself off and concentrated on making my husband and son happy. Don't get me wrong, I love to see them smile, I just wish there was something more. All that is left in me is anger and regret and I want the happiness back. Maybe having a set amount to journal could help me find the emotion and passion that is missing from my life.

I just happened to buy a new Jillian Michaels yoga video the other day so that is where I started this morning. I started off fine and then Aiden decided he needed a drink at that very moment so I got him one. Then I went back to the video and Aiden followed right under me flopping like a crappy while I'm in downward dog. I didn't last more than 10 minutes with Jillian and I was shaking but I felt so good.

As for the journaling, that is a lot harder for me to accomplish when I need to play trains or save Aiden from a dragon. In between writing and throwing a little bouncy ball into hyper activeness? I managed to pull out 800 words. I feel pretty proud of myself. I am not sure why I didn't just wait until Aiden's nap.

Here is a piece of what I wrote,
"I don't really understand my need to be alone. Possibly because it has been over three years since I have had any time to myself. Literally, not a day to myself. I think if I did have a day alone I would be very lonely. Ha ha, wow, I guess that isn't something I am prepared for. What would I do if I were alone for a day?"

June 5, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.

May 30, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.

May 28, 2010

My Darkest Hour

Early Monday morning I woke Aiden up to feed him popsicles and have him drink lots of water. We had only an hour before he wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything. Little did he know he would be going into surgery soon. He rarely gets popsicles, let alone for breakfast. I got down on my knees to explain that he was going to the hospital. Aiden got excited, I said, "You are going to have surgery honey, and when you get out you will have owies." "Oh" he said.

While we were talking to the anesthesiologist Aiden heard him mention the popsicle room he would be going to afterward. Aiden was so excited to know he was getting more popsicles. After talking to the doctors I took Aiden back to the operating room. As soon as he saw the room he was scared, Aiden knew there weren't popsicles waiting for him here. Aiden clung to my leg. I showed him the warm little air bed that he was going to lay on and the wheel he was going to play with. Aiden loosened his grip on my leg. I picked him up and set him on the operating table. The doctor suggested we sing a song so Aiden would calm down. Everyone in the room started singing The Wheels on the Bus while Aiden had a mask forced onto his face. His eyes told me he was frightened. I was having such a hard time keeping from choking up. Finally he fell asleep and the nurses picked up his lifeless body to lay it on the table as another nurse grabbed my arm and led me out to the hallway where Matt was waiting.

When I returned to Matt's side he asked if Aiden cried. I slowly shook my head no and then sobs began to shake from me. Matt tried to console me but I wouldn't let him. I yelled at him, "It should have been you in there!" We both knew it had to be me though.  It was so scary to see Aiden so helpless. That image of his limp little body will always be in my head.

The good news is Aiden is feeling great now. He is running, jumping and climbing like any little boy would. He never did go to a popsicle room, but I made up for that when we got home. I let him eat the whole box of popsicles!

May 21, 2010

Making Fabric

I have started making prints for quilting. I have made robot, fly and pansy prints ( I know quit the combo). I don't have any for sale yet but I can't wait to order the pink flies and see what it really looks like in person.

This picture just doesn't do the print justice. The flies are super small and the design is really neat. I don't know how to work everything yet so this is the only picture I could get.

Pink Fly

May 5, 2010

Four Good Things

1. I am so happy that Aiden isn't afraid of swimming. Yesterday we spent 3 hours at the pool and Aiden had no problem walking into the big pool by himself.

2. I have planted tomatoes in a pot so far and I am looking forward to fresh tomatoes on my sandwiches.

3. I finally have my car back. It has been in the shop for about two weeks getting the bumper repaired and my husband kept having to work late so we couldn't pick it up. Anyways, I was thinking about selling it because I don't feel like we really need it but now that I have seen it again I fell back in love with my car. I should take a picture of it. My car is the most beautiful blue...

4. My husband is the greatest. Although he cannot keep a secret. Matt has already shown me a picture of the necklace he bought me off of ETSY for mothers day. I love that website and he remembered! He has also been showing me more love by giving lots of hugs, something that completely calms me when I am angry and comforts me always.                                                                                                                                                                            

May 4, 2010

Ten for 2010

Here are ten things I would like to do before the end of 2010. They seem easy enough and I will cross them off my list as I complete them.

1. Organize the Kitchen and Dining Room
2. Sew a dress for myself
3. Take a photography class
4. Pay off one credit card
5. Have a date night with Matt at least once a month
6. Refinish my patio table
7. Grow some vegetables
8. Put $1000.00 into savings
9. Redecorate the living room
10. Take Aiden to Sea World

April 30, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.

April 29, 2010

What an amazing child!

So it seems that I have forgotten the blogger world for a little bit. My migraines have taken over and I cannot think straight. I have been trying the homeopathic route since none of the prescriptions did anything for me other than make me drowsy. So far it works most of the time. It is called Hyland's Migraine Headache Relief.

On another note, Aiden has taken up photography at 2 1/2 years old! He is quite good in my eyes. Don't you think so?

April 23, 2010

My Great Friday

Today was a great day! I can't believe it but that is the first time I can say that in forever. I feel like nothing went wrong. Really I lost my temper a couple of times. Matt even said that he loved me today because I wasn't a total bitch. I kind of chuckle at that because I totally understand how he feels when I am constantly nagging or yelling at him.

So today we took in the Pontiac to get it appraised... $800 bucks! That is just to replace a bumper. When I think about it though it isn't all that bad. Except we have to pay $500 of that. YIKES! Sorry dealership, I don't have that kind of cash laying around. I guess you can keep my car an extra few days till I get paid.

After we were done at the dealership we headed back to Matt's work. They were having a command picnic. We both figured that after the picnic everyone would head home. No such luck! They had to stay an extra two hours. I am glad that there was a park right next door to the base.

Aiden spent most of that two hours running up and down midget hills. He had his arms out in front of him like a zombie, his face towards the sky running while making this UGHHH guhguhguh sound. I could not stop laughing!

Later on, after Matt got off of work, we headed out to eat realizing once we got there we forgot Aiden's backpack (the diaper bag). Matt thought no big deal. So I had him check and sure enough there was a mess. Good thing that Target was near by. Aiden needed a new backpack anyway because the straps were ripping on his old one. We bought a small pack of diapers and wipes, Aiden picked out a Toy Story backpack and we were good to go.

After we ate, Matt bought tickets to Disney Nature Oceans. We were able to sit through maybe one third of the movie but it was awesome. Our mistake was letting Aiden have some candy... that boy had ants in his pants...

The good news is that Aiden went right to sleep when we put him in bed. I am so happy that family outings are much easier than they used to be. I am also happy because I let it be a great day. I think that is a key thing for me. I have to remember to let it be a great day.

Four Good Things

I got Four Good Things from Pancakes&Frenchfries. I thought it would be a good thing for me considering I seem to always focus on the negative. I will try to do this on fridays and tuesdays so I remember all I have to be thankful for. I guess this blog really is mostly for me to be able to look back and see all of the great (and sometimes bad) things that have been happening in my life.

1. It's sunny outside! This is the first time all week. It has been cold and rainy so Aiden hasn't been able to go outside. Aiden has been going insane which has been driving me insane! I hope it stays sunny all day :)

2. My car is going into the shop today to get the bumper fixed. I really don't want to pay a $500 deductible, but whatever. I honestly am not sure how the deductible works. Anyway, I can't wait to have the bumper repainted because it was chipping before Matt backed into a car.

3. Wednesday was a really rough day for me. Aiden screamed all day to go outside. Since I wouldn't let him he kept getting his stool out and climbing up on it to get into everything in the kitchen. So all day I was constantly chasing after him and cleaning up EVERYTHING he would knock over. Then he wouldn't take a nap... UGH! Well Matt came home and made my night perfect. He took Aiden with him to the grocery store and was gone for an hour. He came back with a pot of purple mums and (my favorite) cheetos puffs. I started crying, he made my night.

4. I have started drawing again. I took up a fascination with robots and started drawing them. Then I remembered that I could put my drawings onto things like shoes and shirt at zazzle. So I have a few things on there now. I think the kids robot shoes turned out pretty well considering I don't have any type of art editor on my computer. All I did was copy and scan my drawings and put them together in a pattern. They are definitely not contenders with most of the cool artwork in there but I love them and think I will buy a pair of robot shoes for Aiden.

I can't wait to get my drawing of Spiderman on there!

April 21, 2010

Project Plant: A Little Earth Day Fun!

Tomorrow is Earth Day so I thought that I would help Aiden understand how things grow. There is a section in his preschool book that is all about plants and the cycle they go through. I know he didn't understand it all but I know that he liked planting seeds! It was so fun to watch how carefully he put the dirt into the bucket. When he spilled a little Aiden said, "uh-oh mess"!

I have been so scared to do these types of things with Aiden because I really don't like messes and I know it is starting to rub off on him. Seeing the look of concentration and joy on his face is priceless and I am glad that I did this with Aiden.

April 20, 2010

Shampoo Free

My hair is thin, it breaks easily and I have a thick layer of flaky skin on the back of my head. My hair has always been that way. My main reason for trying this recipe out is because I saw that it might eliminate the dry itchy spots.  This recipe starts with a baking soda solution wash and then a rinse of apple cider vinegar. Easy household supplies. I love it!

Day 1
Babyslime says that I shouldn't have to wash my hair everyday if I go no-poo. My question is do I wash my hair first and then use the baking soda solution?
Well, I hopped into the shower and started pouring the baking soda solution over my head and massaging it into my scalp. I let it sit for a few minutes before rinsing it out. Now my question was do I rinse it out with the apple cider vinegar solution or with water first? I went with a quick rinse in the shower and then poured the vinegar solution and massaged that into my scalp. I don't know yet but it seems my hair is taking a lot longer to dry? I think it has been over an hour and I have pretty short hair.
Now that my hair is dry it feels a lot cleaner and not as dry as it usually is after I shampoo and condition it. I will definitely keep trying this!

P.S. I have no clue how to add links!

April 19, 2010

Better than the last

This weekend was great! Yes, I was crabby again but not as bad as last weekend. This weekend my husband was an angel to me.

Saturday my husband let me be by myself and I actually got to scrapbook for the first time since before Aiden was born. I felt great! The page didn't turn out very well but at least I got to sit in pure quiet for an hour. We also went for a bike ride to that park I found. Aiden and I swung on the tire swing and my husband started to get sick watching us spin around. Before I new it the sun was starting its decent so we headed back home to get Aiden ready for bed.

Sunday I was so proud of us for getting to church at 8 am. This is the second week in a row. May I mention that we don't go to church often. I am hoping to make 8 am church regular. I feel great going early in the morning when my mind is fresh. Pastor Miles is a great speaker and we both enjoy the environment. It was a perfect warm sunny day and I bothered my husband almost all day to go to the pool. We went before lunch and our pool key wouldn't work! After Aiden's nap I asked to try again and if not the hubby could just jump over the fence. This time our key worked! We only had about 10 minutes of sun and the wind started to blow the clouds over. It got so chilly but Aiden didn't seem to mind. He swam around the big pool with his floaties on. Once he got out he couldn't stop shivering. I thought that I would have a hard time coaxing him to leave. As soon as I mentioned there was a towel waiting for him he was over by the stroller ready to go. I also made lemon bars but those didn't turn out to my liking. I overworked the crust and then didn't put it in the fridge so the middle was runny. I am thinking of making a strawberry pie later on this week. We will see!

April 16, 2010

Four Good Things

1. It's Friday! Meaning my husband should be home soon and has the weekend off. I can't wait to spend some time with him. I know I said I hate him but I really do love him and am glad that I have another weekend to do better than the last.

2. I found a new park to take Aiden to and it gives me walking time. I get a total of 2.5 miles in! So hopefully I will keep this up every day. Aiden really seems to love this park, I don't care where we go as long as I can walk there. I love the fact that this park has a tire swing! I haven't seen one of these since I was little.

3. I mailed off letters to my mom and sister. They don't have great service where they live so write letters back and forth. Plus, a letter is so much more personal.

4. It's nap time. I love this hour of quiet. Sometimes I let Aiden sleep a little longer just because I am not ready to let go of the quiet. Maybe I can get some work in on the Post Office side of Aiden's fort.

April 11, 2010

Feeling really low

I don't know what is wrong with me! I have this ball of fury inside me right now. I am just constantly angry and it is directed towards my husband. I end up saying mean things to him or screaming at him which just makes me more angry that I acted that way. I feel like I can't even calm down.

If only I could have a couple of hours to myself to just calm down and relax for a little bit I think I might feel a little better. I just can't get that every day though. I feel like I am at the end of my rope and have no where to turn to. I am weak and have no one to talk to.

I have this feeling like everyone looks down on me and that I should just suck it up because maybe everyone else feels just as bad as I do but are way better at keeping it inside.

Ever since I got out of the Navy I have been wondering what my purpose is and what I should be doing with my time. I am constantly busy with Aiden and trying my hardest to keep the house clean but fail everyday. Then my husband comes home and I get this feeling that he thinks my day was cake and I should just continue the parenting on my own and let him rest or play games.

I have this constant pressure put on me that I should be the one doing everything around the house even when my partner is at home because he works and I don't therefore I don't deserve any time alone. I feel like I hate him which makes me hate myself because I want to be that perfect wife who adores her husband and will go to the ends of the earth to do anything for her family... right now I just want to get away from it all.

April 9, 2010

Project Fort: The Top of the Table

Working at the demands of a two year old is not easy. He is standing on a stool on the other side of the kitchen yelling "pweez, pweeez, pway?", while I am sewing together the top of a card table fort. I can understand the excitement he must have of newly paved roads on a big piece of felt. It is land his cars have never explored before.

Aiden has a rug with roads and other things on it but doesn't play on it too often due to the fact that he doesn't like playing on the floor. I saw that a friend on facebook had made a card table fort for her boys and I thought it was a great idea. So here I am attempting to sew together a fort made of felt. May I mention that I am a beginner sewer?

Yes in deed! I have had my Brother sewing machine for about three years and had tried to sew a baby quilt together before Aiden was born. It is still not finished because it got all bunched up in one part and I cannot get the stitches out. Since then the sewing machine has not been used.

So, after two days of interruptions I have finished the top of the fort enough for Aiden to play on it. There are still many things I would like to sew onto it and the ideas are still flowing. It will at least keep Aiden busy while I start on the sides.