June 27, 2010

Ten for 2010 Update!

Here are ten things I would like to do before the end of 2010. They seem easy enough and I will cross them off my list as I complete them.

1. Organize the Kitchen and Dining Room
2. Sew a dress for myself
3. Take a photography class
4. Pay off one credit card
5. Have a date night with Matt at least once a month
6. Refinish my patio table
7. Grow some vegetables  (I have 4 tomatoes growing!)
8. Put $1000.00 into savings
9. Redecorate the living room
10. Take Aiden to Sea World

June 18, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.



June 16, 2010

Day 8 Beliefs

I have never fully read the Bible. Just so you know I don't know everything I should, but here is a little bit from my writing challenge.

"I just don't see God turning His back on anyone. Gay or Straight. I believe is it us who lose sight of God or turn our backs on Him. I believe that God is by our side through all our decisions, good or bad. He is there waiting for us to turn to Him and ask Him for guidance..." 

June 10, 2010

A Step Closer to Finding Myself

Today felt great. I didn't end up doing yoga because of a busy day but I made sure to do my writing. I am glad I did that.

"Amber, I just wanted to tell you how much I love and adore you. I only wish that I could come out and show you. I hope that you find yourself soon. Love, me"

Yes, I wrote that to myself. Yes, it may seem cheesy but it certainly made my day worth while.

June 9, 2010

Am I up to the Challenge?






So I happen to stumble upon this website and she is hosting a writer's challenge. This challenge is for 21 days, 5 days a week I will be doing yoga and every day I have to write 800 words. It sounds to me like I could get something out of this.

I feel like between marriage and a child I have lost myself. I closed myself off and concentrated on making my husband and son happy. Don't get me wrong, I love to see them smile, I just wish there was something more. All that is left in me is anger and regret and I want the happiness back. Maybe having a set amount to journal could help me find the emotion and passion that is missing from my life.

I just happened to buy a new Jillian Michaels yoga video the other day so that is where I started this morning. I started off fine and then Aiden decided he needed a drink at that very moment so I got him one. Then I went back to the video and Aiden followed right under me flopping like a crappy while I'm in downward dog. I didn't last more than 10 minutes with Jillian and I was shaking but I felt so good.

As for the journaling, that is a lot harder for me to accomplish when I need to play trains or save Aiden from a dragon. In between writing and throwing a little bouncy ball into hyper activeness? I managed to pull out 800 words. I feel pretty proud of myself. I am not sure why I didn't just wait until Aiden's nap.

Here is a piece of what I wrote,
"I don't really understand my need to be alone. Possibly because it has been over three years since I have had any time to myself. Literally, not a day to myself. I think if I did have a day alone I would be very lonely. Ha ha, wow, I guess that isn't something I am prepared for. What would I do if I were alone for a day?"

June 5, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.