June 9, 2010

Am I up to the Challenge?

So I happen to stumble upon this website and she is hosting a writer's challenge. This challenge is for 21 days, 5 days a week I will be doing yoga and every day I have to write 800 words. It sounds to me like I could get something out of this.

I feel like between marriage and a child I have lost myself. I closed myself off and concentrated on making my husband and son happy. Don't get me wrong, I love to see them smile, I just wish there was something more. All that is left in me is anger and regret and I want the happiness back. Maybe having a set amount to journal could help me find the emotion and passion that is missing from my life.

I just happened to buy a new Jillian Michaels yoga video the other day so that is where I started this morning. I started off fine and then Aiden decided he needed a drink at that very moment so I got him one. Then I went back to the video and Aiden followed right under me flopping like a crappy while I'm in downward dog. I didn't last more than 10 minutes with Jillian and I was shaking but I felt so good.

As for the journaling, that is a lot harder for me to accomplish when I need to play trains or save Aiden from a dragon. In between writing and throwing a little bouncy ball into hyper activeness? I managed to pull out 800 words. I feel pretty proud of myself. I am not sure why I didn't just wait until Aiden's nap.

Here is a piece of what I wrote,
"I don't really understand my need to be alone. Possibly because it has been over three years since I have had any time to myself. Literally, not a day to myself. I think if I did have a day alone I would be very lonely. Ha ha, wow, I guess that isn't something I am prepared for. What would I do if I were alone for a day?"