This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.

My Darkest Hour

Early Monday morning I woke Aiden up to feed him popsicles and have him drink lots of water. We had only an hour before he wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything. Little did he know he would be going into surgery soon. He rarely gets popsicles, let alone for breakfast. I got down on my knees to explain that he was going to the hospital. Aiden got excited, I said, "You are going to have surgery honey, and when you get out you will have owies." "Oh" he said.

While we were talking to the anesthesiologist Aiden heard him mention the popsicle room he would be going to afterward. Aiden was so excited to know he was getting more popsicles. After talking to the doctors I took Aiden back to the operating room. As soon as he saw the room he was scared, Aiden knew there weren't popsicles waiting for him here. Aiden clung to my leg. I showed him the warm little air bed that he was going to lay on and the wheel he was going to play with. Aiden loosened his grip on my leg. I picked him up and set him on the operating table. The doctor suggested we sing a song so Aiden would calm down. Everyone in the room started singing The Wheels on the Bus while Aiden had a mask forced onto his face. His eyes told me he was frightened. I was having such a hard time keeping from choking up. Finally he fell asleep and the nurses picked up his lifeless body to lay it on the table as another nurse grabbed my arm and led me out to the hallway where Matt was waiting.

When I returned to Matt's side he asked if Aiden cried. I slowly shook my head no and then sobs began to shake from me. Matt tried to console me but I wouldn't let him. I yelled at him, "It should have been you in there!" We both knew it had to be me though.  It was so scary to see Aiden so helpless. That image of his limp little body will always be in my head.

The good news is Aiden is feeling great now. He is running, jumping and climbing like any little boy would. He never did go to a popsicle room, but I made up for that when we got home. I let him eat the whole box of popsicles!

Making Fabric

I have started making prints for quilting. I have made robot, fly and pansy prints ( I know quit the combo). I don't have any for sale yet but I can't wait to order the pink flies and see what it really looks like in person.

This picture just doesn't do the print justice. The flies are super small and the design is really neat. I don't know how to work everything yet so this is the only picture I could get.

Four Good Things

1. I am so happy that Aiden isn't afraid of swimming. Yesterday we spent 3 hours at the pool and Aiden had no problem walking into the big pool by himself.

2. I have planted tomatoes in a pot so far and I am looking forward to fresh tomatoes on my sandwiches.

3. I finally have my car back. It has been in the shop for about two weeks getting the bumper repaired and my husband kept having to work late so we couldn't pick it up. Anyways, I was thinking about selling it because I don't feel like we really need it but now that I have seen it again I fell back in love with my car. I should take a picture of it. My car is the most beautiful blue...

4. My husband is the greatest. Although he cannot keep a secret. Matt has already shown me a picture of the necklace he bought me off of ETSY for mothers day. I love that website and he remembered! He has also been showing me more love by giving lots of hugs, something that completely calms me when I am angry and comforts me always.                                                                                                                                                                            

Ten for 2010

Here are ten things I would like to do before the end of 2010. They seem easy enough and I will cross them off my list as I complete them.

1. Organize the Kitchen and Dining Room

2. Sew a dress for myself

3. Take a photography class

4. Pay off one credit card

5. Have a date night with Matt at least once a month

6. Refinish my patio table

7. Grow some vegetables

8. Put $1000.00 into savings

9. Redecorate the living room

10. Take Aiden to Sea World