April 30, 2010

This Moment

This is my moment, a new ritual I wanted to start. Just a picture from this week capturing a moment that means something to me. Something I would like to remember for years to come.

April 29, 2010

What an amazing child!

So it seems that I have forgotten the blogger world for a little bit. My migraines have taken over and I cannot think straight. I have been trying the homeopathic route since none of the prescriptions did anything for me other than make me drowsy. So far it works most of the time. It is called Hyland's Migraine Headache Relief.

On another note, Aiden has taken up photography at 2 1/2 years old! He is quite good in my eyes. Don't you think so?

April 23, 2010

My Great Friday

Today was a great day! I can't believe it but that is the first time I can say that in forever. I feel like nothing went wrong. Really I lost my temper a couple of times. Matt even said that he loved me today because I wasn't a total bitch. I kind of chuckle at that because I totally understand how he feels when I am constantly nagging or yelling at him.

So today we took in the Pontiac to get it appraised... $800 bucks! That is just to replace a bumper. When I think about it though it isn't all that bad. Except we have to pay $500 of that. YIKES! Sorry dealership, I don't have that kind of cash laying around. I guess you can keep my car an extra few days till I get paid.

After we were done at the dealership we headed back to Matt's work. They were having a command picnic. We both figured that after the picnic everyone would head home. No such luck! They had to stay an extra two hours. I am glad that there was a park right next door to the base.

Aiden spent most of that two hours running up and down midget hills. He had his arms out in front of him like a zombie, his face towards the sky running while making this UGHHH guhguhguh sound. I could not stop laughing!

Later on, after Matt got off of work, we headed out to eat realizing once we got there we forgot Aiden's backpack (the diaper bag). Matt thought no big deal. So I had him check and sure enough there was a mess. Good thing that Target was near by. Aiden needed a new backpack anyway because the straps were ripping on his old one. We bought a small pack of diapers and wipes, Aiden picked out a Toy Story backpack and we were good to go.

After we ate, Matt bought tickets to Disney Nature Oceans. We were able to sit through maybe one third of the movie but it was awesome. Our mistake was letting Aiden have some candy... that boy had ants in his pants...

The good news is that Aiden went right to sleep when we put him in bed. I am so happy that family outings are much easier than they used to be. I am also happy because I let it be a great day. I think that is a key thing for me. I have to remember to let it be a great day.

Four Good Things

I got Four Good Things from Pancakes&Frenchfries. I thought it would be a good thing for me considering I seem to always focus on the negative. I will try to do this on fridays and tuesdays so I remember all I have to be thankful for. I guess this blog really is mostly for me to be able to look back and see all of the great (and sometimes bad) things that have been happening in my life.

1. It's sunny outside! This is the first time all week. It has been cold and rainy so Aiden hasn't been able to go outside. Aiden has been going insane which has been driving me insane! I hope it stays sunny all day :)

2. My car is going into the shop today to get the bumper fixed. I really don't want to pay a $500 deductible, but whatever. I honestly am not sure how the deductible works. Anyway, I can't wait to have the bumper repainted because it was chipping before Matt backed into a car.

3. Wednesday was a really rough day for me. Aiden screamed all day to go outside. Since I wouldn't let him he kept getting his stool out and climbing up on it to get into everything in the kitchen. So all day I was constantly chasing after him and cleaning up EVERYTHING he would knock over. Then he wouldn't take a nap... UGH! Well Matt came home and made my night perfect. He took Aiden with him to the grocery store and was gone for an hour. He came back with a pot of purple mums and (my favorite) cheetos puffs. I started crying, he made my night.

4. I have started drawing again. I took up a fascination with robots and started drawing them. Then I remembered that I could put my drawings onto things like shoes and shirt at zazzle. So I have a few things on there now. I think the kids robot shoes turned out pretty well considering I don't have any type of art editor on my computer. All I did was copy and scan my drawings and put them together in a pattern. They are definitely not contenders with most of the cool artwork in there but I love them and think I will buy a pair of robot shoes for Aiden.

I can't wait to get my drawing of Spiderman on there!

April 21, 2010

Project Plant: A Little Earth Day Fun!

Tomorrow is Earth Day so I thought that I would help Aiden understand how things grow. There is a section in his preschool book that is all about plants and the cycle they go through. I know he didn't understand it all but I know that he liked planting seeds! It was so fun to watch how carefully he put the dirt into the bucket. When he spilled a little Aiden said, "uh-oh mess"!

I have been so scared to do these types of things with Aiden because I really don't like messes and I know it is starting to rub off on him. Seeing the look of concentration and joy on his face is priceless and I am glad that I did this with Aiden.

April 20, 2010

Shampoo Free

My hair is thin, it breaks easily and I have a thick layer of flaky skin on the back of my head. My hair has always been that way. My main reason for trying this recipe out is because I saw that it might eliminate the dry itchy spots.  This recipe starts with a baking soda solution wash and then a rinse of apple cider vinegar. Easy household supplies. I love it!

Day 1
Babyslime says that I shouldn't have to wash my hair everyday if I go no-poo. My question is do I wash my hair first and then use the baking soda solution?
Well, I hopped into the shower and started pouring the baking soda solution over my head and massaging it into my scalp. I let it sit for a few minutes before rinsing it out. Now my question was do I rinse it out with the apple cider vinegar solution or with water first? I went with a quick rinse in the shower and then poured the vinegar solution and massaged that into my scalp. I don't know yet but it seems my hair is taking a lot longer to dry? I think it has been over an hour and I have pretty short hair.
Now that my hair is dry it feels a lot cleaner and not as dry as it usually is after I shampoo and condition it. I will definitely keep trying this!


P.S. I have no clue how to add links!

April 19, 2010

Better than the last

This weekend was great! Yes, I was crabby again but not as bad as last weekend. This weekend my husband was an angel to me.

Saturday my husband let me be by myself and I actually got to scrapbook for the first time since before Aiden was born. I felt great! The page didn't turn out very well but at least I got to sit in pure quiet for an hour. We also went for a bike ride to that park I found. Aiden and I swung on the tire swing and my husband started to get sick watching us spin around. Before I new it the sun was starting its decent so we headed back home to get Aiden ready for bed.

Sunday I was so proud of us for getting to church at 8 am. This is the second week in a row. May I mention that we don't go to church often. I am hoping to make 8 am church regular. I feel great going early in the morning when my mind is fresh. Pastor Miles is a great speaker and we both enjoy the environment. It was a perfect warm sunny day and I bothered my husband almost all day to go to the pool. We went before lunch and our pool key wouldn't work! After Aiden's nap I asked to try again and if not the hubby could just jump over the fence. This time our key worked! We only had about 10 minutes of sun and the wind started to blow the clouds over. It got so chilly but Aiden didn't seem to mind. He swam around the big pool with his floaties on. Once he got out he couldn't stop shivering. I thought that I would have a hard time coaxing him to leave. As soon as I mentioned there was a towel waiting for him he was over by the stroller ready to go. I also made lemon bars but those didn't turn out to my liking. I overworked the crust and then didn't put it in the fridge so the middle was runny. I am thinking of making a strawberry pie later on this week. We will see!

April 16, 2010

Four Good Things

1. It's Friday! Meaning my husband should be home soon and has the weekend off. I can't wait to spend some time with him. I know I said I hate him but I really do love him and am glad that I have another weekend to do better than the last.

2. I found a new park to take Aiden to and it gives me walking time. I get a total of 2.5 miles in! So hopefully I will keep this up every day. Aiden really seems to love this park, I don't care where we go as long as I can walk there. I love the fact that this park has a tire swing! I haven't seen one of these since I was little.

3. I mailed off letters to my mom and sister. They don't have great service where they live so write letters back and forth. Plus, a letter is so much more personal.

4. It's nap time. I love this hour of quiet. Sometimes I let Aiden sleep a little longer just because I am not ready to let go of the quiet. Maybe I can get some work in on the Post Office side of Aiden's fort.

April 11, 2010

Feeling really low

I don't know what is wrong with me! I have this ball of fury inside me right now. I am just constantly angry and it is directed towards my husband. I end up saying mean things to him or screaming at him which just makes me more angry that I acted that way. I feel like I can't even calm down.

If only I could have a couple of hours to myself to just calm down and relax for a little bit I think I might feel a little better. I just can't get that every day though. I feel like I am at the end of my rope and have no where to turn to. I am weak and have no one to talk to.

I have this feeling like everyone looks down on me and that I should just suck it up because maybe everyone else feels just as bad as I do but are way better at keeping it inside.

Ever since I got out of the Navy I have been wondering what my purpose is and what I should be doing with my time. I am constantly busy with Aiden and trying my hardest to keep the house clean but fail everyday. Then my husband comes home and I get this feeling that he thinks my day was cake and I should just continue the parenting on my own and let him rest or play games.

I have this constant pressure put on me that I should be the one doing everything around the house even when my partner is at home because he works and I don't therefore I don't deserve any time alone. I feel like I hate him which makes me hate myself because I want to be that perfect wife who adores her husband and will go to the ends of the earth to do anything for her family... right now I just want to get away from it all.

April 9, 2010

Project Fort: The Top of the Table

Working at the demands of a two year old is not easy. He is standing on a stool on the other side of the kitchen yelling "pweez, pweeez, pway?", while I am sewing together the top of a card table fort. I can understand the excitement he must have of newly paved roads on a big piece of felt. It is land his cars have never explored before.

Aiden has a rug with roads and other things on it but doesn't play on it too often due to the fact that he doesn't like playing on the floor. I saw that a friend on facebook had made a card table fort for her boys and I thought it was a great idea. So here I am attempting to sew together a fort made of felt. May I mention that I am a beginner sewer?

Yes in deed! I have had my Brother sewing machine for about three years and had tried to sew a baby quilt together before Aiden was born. It is still not finished because it got all bunched up in one part and I cannot get the stitches out. Since then the sewing machine has not been used.

So, after two days of interruptions I have finished the top of the fort enough for Aiden to play on it. There are still many things I would like to sew onto it and the ideas are still flowing. It will at least keep Aiden busy while I start on the sides.